Looking Back to Look Forward
Decisions based on Intuition
As a Medium, it is perhaps ironic to say that my life has been anything but predictable. I tend to make decisions based more on intuition than the practical. When I look back, I am always surprised to recall how I felt at those pivotal times that FB conveniently recalls for me. The images and posts are both a review of how real something felt at that time, as well as how far from that reality I have traveled. Even if it was as recent as a year ago, my relationship with life is ever-evolving, and I never feel as if I am the same person as I was when I look backwards. It sheds light, for example, on how stuck I may have been at a particular passage. These emotional revelations are invisible to others, but evoke for me the insight that I have traveled far since that frozen moment presented as a “memory”.
Last night I woke up around 3 am, and as I sipped my Sleepytime Extra tea (my go-to for getting back to sleep), I found myself inexplicably reviewing some personal traumas from 2017-2020. They swept before me, like scrolling through FB memories (albeit faster and more intense). Dealing with what life threw at me, did not allow the bandwidth to see the big picture at that time. One of those traumas was a California wildfire. Fire fighters would contain one section and then the winds would ignite flames in a completely new location, often difficult to access, leaving a massive trail of destruction. They worked tirelessly to fight the fire for 40 days until it was contained. They cannot quit midway and say, “It’s hopeless”. All that was going on inside me during those difficult years was similar. I had to keep going, putting out my own fires; often feeling alone, exhausted, and defeated. What I was facing emotionally was catalyzed by a series of excruciating events and yet the real drama was played out invisibly in my inner universe.
This is the part where I can almost hear the chorus saying, but, didn’t your Guides help you? Although I have addressed this query many times in past articles, I will only say here succinctly that Spirit is here to help us help ourselves. We evolve through facing whatever is placed before us. Knowing our Guides doesn’t prevent us from experiencing whatever karmas, dharmas, and growth opportunities we are destined to encounter. As individuals, we must do the work in order to grow. Our Guides are here to help if we allow them, of course. The challenges are there for a reason. It is how we face them that defines the outcome.
After all those challenges, I am still here; healthy, grateful, and more artistically inspired than ever before. Two years ago, with the help of Spirit (the hand of my Guides was quite evident through the synchronous manner of events); I began again in a new place, emotionally and geographically. The dreams and memories we have are energetic sequences that feel very “real” at the time we experience them. Yet as I scroll through my FB memories or those stored in my emotional brain, I realize that the actual “me” is not the person that lived through that. I am a consciousness that is shaped by my responses to experiences and events. If we are not challenged, there is no evolution; all we will have is the aftermath of destruction.
The existential crisis I experienced a few years ago brought up my entire life for review and it was one of the most difficult times of my life. Sometimes we need to dissolve the old paradigm structures that do not serve us. Exactly three months after my relocation, I watched as the rest of the world began to unravel and undergo a version of what I had just experienced. I was positioned in a timely fashion to be there for others that were in crisis when the global pandemic began. If I hadn’t moved through my own calamity prior to 2020, I am not sure I would have made it through or been available for others. Despite the enormous uncertainty of those difficult years, the presence of my loving Guides is evident. They were helping me through it even if I was too overwhelmed to realize.
The laws of the universe are cyclical in motion. Rebirth and resurrection are part of the journey (physical death is also a rebirth to the Spirit world, not an end to life). When we review the past it inevitably leads us forward to not just the new, but the eternal All-That-Is, the place that is beyond time.
Last and certainly not least, I want to thank each and every one of you reading this for joining with me on this path. Your presence in my life is a beautiful thing.
ASANDRA is an Artist, Writer, and Channel. She attended Parsons School of Design in New York City, and was an Art Director at Art & Auction magazine. For the past 37 years, Asandra has worked professionally as a full-trance Channel, and has an international clientele. She channels Master Spirit Teachers exclusively with a focus on assisting individuals in the fulfillment of their souls’ highest journey.
© Sahar Huneidi-Palmer